It's a chain blog thing....>.>

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. What was your first impression?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. What do you think my weakness is?
7. Do you think I'll get married?
8. What makes me happy?
9. What makes me sad?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Do you think I could kill someone?
15. Describe me in one word.
16. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
17. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
18. Are you going to put this on your livejournal(blog, whatever) and see what I say about you?

Hoshitz, Imma gurl.

Jazz Band concert this saturday! (26th) at 7:30 pm!
For my local readers...come if you can! =D



And now, for your, and my own, amusement....

Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Well, I did know I was a bit on the feminine side. *shrug*
I have no complaints.
Yensilthebrave

OMG GAY!

While browsing through the General Discussion forum, of Gaia, a forum site which many of my readers are members of, although they're not very active to my knowledge, I cam across this thread. (title link, go there and read the first post before continuing here)
It deals with sexual insecurity.
One user, a friend of mine, responded with this statement: "Men are raised, and constantly hounded, in our society about any signs of homosexuality. And they vehemently protest when this occurs. Homophobia is a learned trait..."
I felt prompted to respond with the following rant...

"It's a great social injustice, as well.

I spent two seasons in my highschool's color guard.
I was teased by my friends, and abused by strangers.
I was constantly putting up with gay jokes, such as the classic "flaggot" icon_stare.gif
All this because I was on a team of 2o girls and two guys. Let me repeat that: TWENTY girls and TWO guys....that's ten chicks each....sound gay to you? icon_confused.gif

Oddlyenough (or not) the gay jokes decreased when I joined the wrestling team...so did the wimp and nerd cracks. I guess this was because I was doing something "manly."
WTF?
I joined a sport that involves, not only communal showers, but rolling around on a mat with another guy while wearing a tight spandex uniform.
Obviously this isn't gay. Certainly not as gay as standing still for long periods of time or in perfect unison with ten other people, spinning a piece of wood, or metal (drill rifles and sabers), or metal and cloth (flag) and throwing this heavy piece of equipment up into the air and catching, risking certain pain if you miss and hit get hit.
Obviously.
After all, it's not like they do the same kind of thing in military honor gaurds, which are a male dominated group of people.
But...no, highschool color gaurd is female dominated, so it must be girly.
icon_rolleyes.gif
And obviously, if a guy does something "girly" it's gay.


Duh. "



Leave a comment,
Yensilthebrave


Oh, and on a totally unrelated note, if I ever met my long lost identical twin, I would kill him immediately, because one of us is bound to be evil.

Uh oh.

You know it's not good when you hear noises behind you, and you know that the only thing in that part of the room is your trashcan.....

So what do you do? Do you run away? Do you turn around to see what caused the noise? Maybe you automatically reach for a weapon? Or maybe, just maybe, you realize that it's past time you cleaned your room......

Well, that incedent helped to spice up an otherwise boring monday.

Get your own box

That's what it says on the back of my Cheez-Its. And I have to say, it's tough to argue with a statement like that. Fortunately, it is my own box.
You know, I never get any good rants. Probably because I'm too lazy to do it while I'm mad, and so I put it off until I've calmed down...
*sigh*
Well anyway, my plans for this weekend were shattered by an attack of concsience.
I realized that my time would be better spent working on my make up assignments for last semester.
Oh well, there's other fish in the sea.

But there's still some water in the bucket.

Well, I went looking for inspiration.
I read through comments on all of my old posts.
And I read a few of the posts themselves.
I selected six posts that I feel are worth revisiting.
I'm going to list and discuss them in order from oldest to newest.
I suggest you follow the links and read them, and even post comments on them, since I'll be keeping my eyes open...
So, first...

The Insomniac Kitty
Well, I'm sure all of you oldbies remember this, and I hope you newer readers will take a look.
In fact, this is the reason for my second AIM SN.

Love at first sight?
Some of you may notice that I changed the name of this poem.
I figure that those of you who know her know enough to keep your mouths shut about it.
Anyway, I'm over it. I just wanted to revisit this.
And thanks for that comment Tamara.
I was quite surprised to see it, but I knew right away who it was.

*sigh* I was so depressed when I wrote this.
Well, I was.
Go read it.
Leave a comment...no one did at the time.

Remember...
Where would we be without a little bit of patriotism?
I wrote this shortly after 9/11 this past year.
Have we forgotten the tragedy so soon?
It seemed no different from any other day, this time...


You gotta look to see.
I still can't see them.
Which is too bad because they would have been a good source of inspiration.
Better than my emo music.

Rejected in the Rain
This poem is still hanging on my wall next to the one I wrote about Karen, which I discussed earlier in this post...shame on you if you didn't follow the link to read it.
This one is kinda wierd, isn't it?


Oh yeah, I should post a link to my Deviant Art site so you guys can see some of the stuff I do besides poetry, although that is still my strongest form of expression.
It's here.
And now I'm going to go look for some poetic inspiration some more.
Suggestions are still needed. (see previous post)

The well's run dry.

Hmm, I need to update, but I don't really have much to say.
And I haven't written much poetry lately.
I feel like I'm out of ideas.
Perhaps I should go on a quest for inspiration?
But where and when and how? u_u
This bears pondering.
Andy suggestions?

Eighteen Years.

Counting to now

One is a lonely number, so it's said
Two fit together, and thus they are wed
Three form a chord and sing harmony
Four are the points of a compass at sea
Five are a nickel, and five more, a dime
Six are the lines I've just written in rhyme
Seven is lucky, good fortune befall
Eight isn't anything special at all
Nine is uneven, and by one is short
Ten is a base, of the numeral sort.
Eleven repeats itself, again and again
Twelve is a dozen, and hours for Big Ben
Thirteen is a number that doesn't bode well
Fourteen is another with nothing to tell
Fifteen is merely three times five
Sixteen is when you learn to drive
Seventeen makes no demands
Eighteen is when a boy becomes man

Well, I'm eighteen, nineteen in a month and a half.
This poem has eighteen lines, mainly because I felt it was dragging and was out of ideas, though.
Personally I don't think it's one of my best, but it desrves to be seen.
I've been hiding this away in hopes of improving it, but I think this is as good as it's gonna get.
I has a nice little rhyme and cadence to it, but no deeper meaning. :|
Lemme know your thoughts.
Changed my signoff name.
The flying monkey may return, but right now, this is how I feel.
~Yensil

The world needs more courage.

Courage to fear.
Courage to hope.
Courage to hurt.
Courage to cope.
Courage to laugh.
Courage to cry.
Courage to live.
Courage to die.
Courage to love.
Courage to hate.
Courage to leave.
Courage to wait.
Courage to jump.
Courage to fall.
Courage to run.
Courage to crawl.
Courage to go.
Courage to stay.
Courage to work.
Courage to play.
Courage to fail.
Courage to try.
Courage to wish.
Courage to fly.
Courage to fight.
Courage to talk.
Courage to stand.
Courage to walk.
Courage to win.
Courage to lose.
Courage to dream.
Courage to use.

The popular thing right now seems to be to hate those who hate.
But it's my opinion that hate is a viable, and unfortunately necessary emotion.
To be human is to be imperfect.
But hate has this in common with love: to hate something enough to fight against it takes just as much courage as it does to love something enough to defend it.
Every single thing you do takes courage.
Every time you take a breath you risk inhaling poison.
Everytime you go outside, you risk exposure.
There's so much in this worl to be afraid of.
Maybe...maybe if we all just had a little more courage, the world wouldn't be such a scary place?
We'd still have problems, sure.
But maybe we'd have a better chance of dealing with them.
Hate is often a result of fear.
Fear of things that are different.
But no matter how much you hate something, it takes courage to fight against it.
It even takes courage to be afraid.
Fear is frightening and therefore we avoid it.
But you have to face fear, and accept it in all of it's horrible power before you can overcome it.

Have courage,
Yensilthebrave

Yeah, I have no idea what's happening.

My brain is still asleep right now.
And, yeah, I had a kinda wierd morning.
I need to move the phone closer to my bed....
So anyway, what to talk about?
Well, we got about 15 inches of snow, which is more than I've ever seen in my life (excluding the ski trip to colorado).
And I've made some new friends, although it's more of multiplayer video game kinda relationship.
Yep, lots and lots of Halo 2.
So anyway, that's just about it for now.
There's more I want to talk about, but I should probably wait until my brain turns on.

Give it another go.

When I woke up this morning, I did not expect to spend my evening pondering the meaning of trust and comparing life to video games.
And yet, it happened.
So, yeah, life is unpredictable like that.

So far my second semster has been going well.
I think I'm gonna enjoy my classes. ^-^
And of course, I'm gonna work hard.
My goal is to get straight A's this semester.
I figure, if I aim high, I can't hit the ground, even if I do miss the target.
Erm...yeah, I guess that's all for now.

Can't keep me down,
I'm on the rebound.
Not gonna fail.
Now I'm gonna sail.
Gonna sail into the clear blue sky.

Yensilthebrave

Back in action once again!

Well, to celebrate my return to school, I thought I'd give you all a poem.
I've been meaning to post it for a while, now.

Ironies

You always need a sheet of paper
Right after one is torn,
And your socks are always stinky
The day after they are worn.

Your stars are only lucky
When they're falling from the sky,
And if you ever say hello,
Then you have to say goodbye.

And an essay can't be written,
If you haven't read the books,
And a fish cannot be caught,
If you didn't bait the hooks.

And you cannot know a person,
Until you know eachother's names.
And a sword is only tempered,
When it passes through the flames.

And if something isn't broken,
Then it cannot be repaired.
And if you were once hated,
Then at least, somebody cared.

And if nothing has gone wrong,
Then it cannot be set right.
And sometimes you can lose,
Just by choosing not to fight.

Well, as some of you know, I had some difficulty last semester.
Over break I did some counseling to help me deal with my problems.
We worked out various ways I can try to get myself to work.
...I'd better go get started. ^-^
Jens

I forgot someone.

Freque Danzer: Thank you for always being willing to offer advice.

Okay, now go back and read the post before this. =P

It's been a long road...but I've got faith of the heart.

On a scale of one to sappy, this post is up there.
Just to warn you.

I Miss You by Blink 182

"The unsuspecting victim Of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me" You grew up a lot in 2004. And it was mostly a very good thing.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

That's very true.
I've grown up a lot.
I'd have to say that my senior year of high school was one of the most infuential and most fun times in my life.
I've been meaning to do this for a while, but I want to thank all the people who made that senior year the best I've ever had.
Therefore, I shall make a list.
Very sorry if I forget anyone.

Thank you all.
Thank you Karen, for dancing with me at homecoming, and for putting up with my childhood crush.
Thank you Anza for talking to me at lunch, even when I was being antisocial.
Thank you Seth for being my friend ever since I moved to Middletown.
Thank you Patrick, Derron, and Armond for inspiring me to excel in music.
Thank you to all my teachers for giving me the gift of knowledge.
Thank you Adam for helping me to rediscover my inner nerd.
Thank you Mike for showing me that nerds can be cool.
Thank you Justin for being someone who I could know, and yet never understand.
Thank you Tom for being the straight man for my zany humor.
Thank you Andy for making me feel like more than just a skinny runt.
Thank you Kristen for being the best little sister anyone could ever have.
Thank you Niels for being stronger than me and fueling my competitive nature.
Thank you Dave and Brian for being my first friends in college.
Thank you Katelyn for always understanding.
Thank you Valerie for....whatever it is you do.
Thank you Billy for teaching me that life is funny.
Thank you Clarky for being a Joker.
Thank you Rob for being there since the beggining.
Thank you John for Redwall.
Thank you mom and dad for raising me and making me into what I am today.
Thank you Bea for motivating me and forcing me to do my school work.
Thank you Julesy for feeding me, and being someone I can always talk to.
Thank you Megan for showing me that people who are worse off than me can still be happy.
Thank you Ralina (since you hate your real name) for keeping me from getting bored.
Thank you Emma for being someone I can be a role model for.
Thank you Chris for getting me back into D&D.
Thank you everyone from GBP for accepting me and putting up with me.
And lastly...well, shucks, I'm out of people to thank.
So, thank you to anyone I missed, I still love ya, even if I don't always remember.

Well, that's enough sappiness to last the whole year, I think.
I'm going to watch the sunrise.
I think that the new year begins with the new day, and I want to be awake to see it arrive.
My New Year's Resolution: To prove to myself that I am cabable of motivating myself to do what I have to do.
And of course, to totally kick ass in general!
WAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOO!



I'm sitting on top of the world.
And feel like nothing can drag me down.
From here, my flag is unfurled.
And up here I can wear a crown.
No one can touch me, no one can see me.
It's just me alone, with the the sky as my throne.
And the clouds rolling by, as I sit here, with I.

Happy New Year,
Yensilthebrave

Settle in folks. I've got a lot to say.

Let me start with a brief overview of the Agnostica party.
(If you don't know what Agnostica is, look HERE)

After much delay and problems, Tommu (You're unmocking spoof) offered to host.
(This was a problem because Dr. Shin, whose idea it was, ended up not being able to host due for reasons which I am not at liberty to discuss)
Aaaaanyway, I managed to get a Tamagotchi out of the Schrodinger box (you did look at the website, right?)
So now I'm stuck taking care of the little pixel fella....all he does is eat and poop. T_T
It's actually quite funny.
I had lots of fun, although, in my antisocial way, I played Halo 2 while everyone else was playign Star Wars Trivial Pursuit.....I know I shouldna...but, ah well.
And I got a chocolate santa out of the random bag of fun.
And after all, since tuesday was the solstice, the days all get longer from here on out! ^-^

And now, on to wednesday.
Wednesday, I had to go to court.
Last thrusday, on the way to an orchestra concert at my old HS, I turned left in front of someone and got into a wreck.
Fortunately no one was hurt, although my airbag did go off.

I ended up having to pay a $30 fine plus $60 in court fees.
$90.
Yay.
And now on to happier things.

It snowed ALL day wednesday.
Thursday morning, we had a level 3 snow emergency.
IE: Emergency vehicles were the only ones allowed on the roads.
The main roads were cleared by noon, though.
I started shoveling at about 3:00.
At 5:00, it was to dark to shovel, and I was only 2/3 doen with the driveway.
That snow was deep!
Ah well, I made mucho dinero in the process.

So, today, I dug my car out (took an hour) and me and my dad went to the mall where I did some last minute shopping and he did whatever it is he does when I'm not around.
My mom, brother, and sister all went skiing.
Thsi evening, we went to the Christmas Eve church service.
However, it was canceled at our church, due to the parking lot not being cleared of snow.
So, we went to the service at the Methodist church where we used to go for X-mas eve when I was younger. (I was thrilled. It made this Christmas more special)

I also got some new snow boots at the mall.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention something.
Our network router is out.
It went down abotu 1:30 on thursday.
I worked on it some today, but couldn't get it fixed. (yet)
This means that I cannot access the internet on my laptop.
I did, however, manage to bypass the router so that the family computer does have a connection.

Cuz I wanted to rant about my life.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that last wednesday I had dinner and hung out with an old friend of mine. (female, possible romantic inerest, we're sorta eachother's backups =D )
It was a blast. I'd missed her.

So anyway, that's all.
TTFN,
Jens, AKA Yensil, AKA MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! (It'll be Christmas here in eastern time in 5 minutes!

Hero of Time, yup, that's me.

Duh.


So, I'm eagerly awaiting Christmas, as are we all, I'm sure.
Yippy skippy doodle and all that stuff. XP

Nobody likes me. AIM really hates me. I'm gonna play some Metroid!

Ummm...I think the title about sums it up.

So, Dr. Shin, what's halfway between fire and air?

Brave, strong willed, loyal and passionate
You are a sprite of Fire. Full of passion, bravery
and spice you are the living embodiment of
fire. You are quite arrogant and think yourself
above most but that is made up for by; your
passionate ability to pursue your dreams, your
strong will and your powerful well skilled
ability for fighting. You are a natural leader,
people are somewhat drawn to you and see you as
someone to look up to but you only pay
attention to them if they are useful, your
equal or your superior. You are a very exciting
person to be near for you have a vast love of
adventure and battle. Fire is a symbol of
Passion if and when you choose to love you are
capable of beautiful, long lasting, devoted
love. You are quite wondrous!


.::=What type of Mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by Quizilla


Although, I'm obviously not female...but who said all sprites were?

And then, we went caroling in Chernobyl.

"Let it glow, let it glow, let it glow."

So, I bought Metroid Prime 2.
Between that and other video games, I've been a bit distracted from my online activities, such as blogging.
I played in my church's Christmas musical this weekend, which was fun.
Yeah, I don't really have anything interesting to say.

Later,
Jens

I'll be home for Christmas (If only in my dreams)

Yes, it's that time of year.
After being stressed out and overloaded by exams and final papers/projects, it's finally time to go home.
I'll be seein all my buddies soon.
I'm booked for saturday and sunday, got work and my church musical.
But after that, we can party.
I suggest you also read the post before this if you haven't yet.
It's pretty short and, in my opinion, kinda important.

Here's to a safe trip,
Homeward bound Yensil.