Eighteen Years.

Counting to now

One is a lonely number, so it's said
Two fit together, and thus they are wed
Three form a chord and sing harmony
Four are the points of a compass at sea
Five are a nickel, and five more, a dime
Six are the lines I've just written in rhyme
Seven is lucky, good fortune befall
Eight isn't anything special at all
Nine is uneven, and by one is short
Ten is a base, of the numeral sort.
Eleven repeats itself, again and again
Twelve is a dozen, and hours for Big Ben
Thirteen is a number that doesn't bode well
Fourteen is another with nothing to tell
Fifteen is merely three times five
Sixteen is when you learn to drive
Seventeen makes no demands
Eighteen is when a boy becomes man

Well, I'm eighteen, nineteen in a month and a half.
This poem has eighteen lines, mainly because I felt it was dragging and was out of ideas, though.
Personally I don't think it's one of my best, but it desrves to be seen.
I've been hiding this away in hopes of improving it, but I think this is as good as it's gonna get.
I has a nice little rhyme and cadence to it, but no deeper meaning. :|
Lemme know your thoughts.
Changed my signoff name.
The flying monkey may return, but right now, this is how I feel.
~Yensil

The world needs more courage.

Courage to fear.
Courage to hope.
Courage to hurt.
Courage to cope.
Courage to laugh.
Courage to cry.
Courage to live.
Courage to die.
Courage to love.
Courage to hate.
Courage to leave.
Courage to wait.
Courage to jump.
Courage to fall.
Courage to run.
Courage to crawl.
Courage to go.
Courage to stay.
Courage to work.
Courage to play.
Courage to fail.
Courage to try.
Courage to wish.
Courage to fly.
Courage to fight.
Courage to talk.
Courage to stand.
Courage to walk.
Courage to win.
Courage to lose.
Courage to dream.
Courage to use.

The popular thing right now seems to be to hate those who hate.
But it's my opinion that hate is a viable, and unfortunately necessary emotion.
To be human is to be imperfect.
But hate has this in common with love: to hate something enough to fight against it takes just as much courage as it does to love something enough to defend it.
Every single thing you do takes courage.
Every time you take a breath you risk inhaling poison.
Everytime you go outside, you risk exposure.
There's so much in this worl to be afraid of.
Maybe...maybe if we all just had a little more courage, the world wouldn't be such a scary place?
We'd still have problems, sure.
But maybe we'd have a better chance of dealing with them.
Hate is often a result of fear.
Fear of things that are different.
But no matter how much you hate something, it takes courage to fight against it.
It even takes courage to be afraid.
Fear is frightening and therefore we avoid it.
But you have to face fear, and accept it in all of it's horrible power before you can overcome it.

Have courage,
Yensilthebrave

Yeah, I have no idea what's happening.

My brain is still asleep right now.
And, yeah, I had a kinda wierd morning.
I need to move the phone closer to my bed....
So anyway, what to talk about?
Well, we got about 15 inches of snow, which is more than I've ever seen in my life (excluding the ski trip to colorado).
And I've made some new friends, although it's more of multiplayer video game kinda relationship.
Yep, lots and lots of Halo 2.
So anyway, that's just about it for now.
There's more I want to talk about, but I should probably wait until my brain turns on.

Give it another go.

When I woke up this morning, I did not expect to spend my evening pondering the meaning of trust and comparing life to video games.
And yet, it happened.
So, yeah, life is unpredictable like that.

So far my second semster has been going well.
I think I'm gonna enjoy my classes. ^-^
And of course, I'm gonna work hard.
My goal is to get straight A's this semester.
I figure, if I aim high, I can't hit the ground, even if I do miss the target.
Erm...yeah, I guess that's all for now.

Can't keep me down,
I'm on the rebound.
Not gonna fail.
Now I'm gonna sail.
Gonna sail into the clear blue sky.

Yensilthebrave

Back in action once again!

Well, to celebrate my return to school, I thought I'd give you all a poem.
I've been meaning to post it for a while, now.

Ironies

You always need a sheet of paper
Right after one is torn,
And your socks are always stinky
The day after they are worn.

Your stars are only lucky
When they're falling from the sky,
And if you ever say hello,
Then you have to say goodbye.

And an essay can't be written,
If you haven't read the books,
And a fish cannot be caught,
If you didn't bait the hooks.

And you cannot know a person,
Until you know eachother's names.
And a sword is only tempered,
When it passes through the flames.

And if something isn't broken,
Then it cannot be repaired.
And if you were once hated,
Then at least, somebody cared.

And if nothing has gone wrong,
Then it cannot be set right.
And sometimes you can lose,
Just by choosing not to fight.

Well, as some of you know, I had some difficulty last semester.
Over break I did some counseling to help me deal with my problems.
We worked out various ways I can try to get myself to work.
...I'd better go get started. ^-^
Jens

I forgot someone.

Freque Danzer: Thank you for always being willing to offer advice.

Okay, now go back and read the post before this. =P

It's been a long road...but I've got faith of the heart.

On a scale of one to sappy, this post is up there.
Just to warn you.

I Miss You by Blink 182

"The unsuspecting victim Of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me" You grew up a lot in 2004. And it was mostly a very good thing.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

That's very true.
I've grown up a lot.
I'd have to say that my senior year of high school was one of the most infuential and most fun times in my life.
I've been meaning to do this for a while, but I want to thank all the people who made that senior year the best I've ever had.
Therefore, I shall make a list.
Very sorry if I forget anyone.

Thank you all.
Thank you Karen, for dancing with me at homecoming, and for putting up with my childhood crush.
Thank you Anza for talking to me at lunch, even when I was being antisocial.
Thank you Seth for being my friend ever since I moved to Middletown.
Thank you Patrick, Derron, and Armond for inspiring me to excel in music.
Thank you to all my teachers for giving me the gift of knowledge.
Thank you Adam for helping me to rediscover my inner nerd.
Thank you Mike for showing me that nerds can be cool.
Thank you Justin for being someone who I could know, and yet never understand.
Thank you Tom for being the straight man for my zany humor.
Thank you Andy for making me feel like more than just a skinny runt.
Thank you Kristen for being the best little sister anyone could ever have.
Thank you Niels for being stronger than me and fueling my competitive nature.
Thank you Dave and Brian for being my first friends in college.
Thank you Katelyn for always understanding.
Thank you Valerie for....whatever it is you do.
Thank you Billy for teaching me that life is funny.
Thank you Clarky for being a Joker.
Thank you Rob for being there since the beggining.
Thank you John for Redwall.
Thank you mom and dad for raising me and making me into what I am today.
Thank you Bea for motivating me and forcing me to do my school work.
Thank you Julesy for feeding me, and being someone I can always talk to.
Thank you Megan for showing me that people who are worse off than me can still be happy.
Thank you Ralina (since you hate your real name) for keeping me from getting bored.
Thank you Emma for being someone I can be a role model for.
Thank you Chris for getting me back into D&D.
Thank you everyone from GBP for accepting me and putting up with me.
And lastly...well, shucks, I'm out of people to thank.
So, thank you to anyone I missed, I still love ya, even if I don't always remember.

Well, that's enough sappiness to last the whole year, I think.
I'm going to watch the sunrise.
I think that the new year begins with the new day, and I want to be awake to see it arrive.
My New Year's Resolution: To prove to myself that I am cabable of motivating myself to do what I have to do.
And of course, to totally kick ass in general!
WAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOO!



I'm sitting on top of the world.
And feel like nothing can drag me down.
From here, my flag is unfurled.
And up here I can wear a crown.
No one can touch me, no one can see me.
It's just me alone, with the the sky as my throne.
And the clouds rolling by, as I sit here, with I.

Happy New Year,
Yensilthebrave