Karaoke

Yeah, I got drunk and sang "Desperado" in front of a bar full of (mostly) old people.
Like, the average age was probably 40-50.
A few people closer to my age, but I still felt like a kid.
But then, after a double shot of Jack and a couple of beers, I was to drunk to mind.
Then I went home and read comic books till I got bored, watched Groundhog Day, remembered why I shouldn't watch romantic comedies by my self (they remind me how depressingly single I am), by then I was sober so I started some spring cleaning.
And then came to the library, but I should get back to cleaning....

Y'know, I've come to realize something recently.
My faith, both the traditional Protestant Christianity I was raised with and my own more philosphical and liberal and (for some, uncumfortably) non-biblical spin on it, is important to me.
I love humanity, for that I despise the evil inherent in it and in my self.
And I've realized that my love for humanity is a facet of something greater.
I love Jesus.
I may not trust the Bible (especially the parts by Paul, conservatism often looks far to much like bigotry to me. And though I possibly shouldn't bring up the 'gay' issue, I am very much aware that this is the biggest bone of contention between mainstream christianity and my own beliefs. I simply cannot accept that love is wrong.), and I may not trust the church (fellowship is about people, not organizations) I still believe in Jesus and salvation.
But I don't really live like it.

...I've forgotten where I was going with this.

This'll have to do.
I guess it's time I started to turn my life around, and get back on the right track.
But I could use a kick in the ass or two.
And I don't intend to stop being controversial, shocking, or to stop playing devils advocate in religious discussions.
Heh.
And since I've been reading Nietzsche lately, I'll quote him:
"I love him who chastizes his god because he loves his god, because he must perish of the wrath of his god." - from Also Sprach Zarathustra, from the Prologue, Part 4, Kaufman translation.